NEVER FINISHED
"All this will not be finished in the first one hundred days. Nor will it be finished in the first thousand days" ~ John F. Kennedy, Inaugural Address 1961
"All this" will never be finished. For I am an alcoholic and drug addict and always will be. The only difference today is I am in recovery. I try my best to take it one day at a time, live in the moment, and work the program.
Today marks 2 solid years without a drink or a drug. It doesn't feel any different than any other day. For "All this" will never be finished.
I can not begin to post about what has been happening this past week or should I say I can not bring myself to post what has been happening in my life. It is so very painful. Just when I thought the worst was over on Wednesday night it only got even worse yesterday. I'm not giving up. I'm not folding in my hand. I am praying. I am asking for strength and guidance. I am using every resource I have to help me. They say (and whomever "they" are I have no idea) that what does not kill you will only make you stronger. I am going to be fuck'n Lara Croft by the end of this.
Thank you to my blogger buddies for your advice and your support. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for everything.
And in the words of my blogger buddy Scott "For those of you who thought I'd never make it - FUCK YOU!"
Today I am grateful.....
*working out
*fresh homemade blueberry muffins
*hot ginger tea
*living two solid years of clean and sober living
*all the wonderful, beautiful, awesome souls who support me in my recovery.
I love you all and I see you all.
Submitted for your approval by jj<> at 6/09/2006 06:33:00 AM
25 Comments:
Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday JJ. I am so grateful that you are a part of my recovery. I am sorry that this is such a hard time for you, but please try to take a second to celebrate yourself. 2 years is a very very big deal.
JJ
You are not alone, ALL mothers of teenagers.........especially teenage girls, understands.
Be proud of your accomplishments, I am
Hang in there!!
JP
Dearest One,
My heart soars because every day, post or not, you inspire me to greater heights. I was just thinking about having years of sobriety, that one day when we will be called 'old timers' and have endured our ups and downs. It will be that day when we look back and say we survived, loved and conquered our fears. You are a joy in my life and I love you from the bottom of my heart. Congratulations!
JJ- Happy 2 years, what a wonderful miracle! I cannot believe it has taken me so long to visit your blog... I have been missing out! Hang in there with what's going on... I don't know anything about it, don't need to but I am praying for God's will for you and your family!
peace to you
I am speechless! So I'll type instead.
Do something special for YOU today. Because YOU deserve it.
No matter the problems at home and work, today you have the tools to deal with these things, otherwise known as dealing with "Life on life's terms." Know that you are not alone, unless you choose to be.
Congratulations JJ. You are a beacon, a sunbeam.
Happy Birthday! Congrats! You are a miracle and God is surely shining love down on you. Enjoy your day. Be proud of yourself. Proud of your sobriety. I'm grateful you are sober and share yourself here with us. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Congrats on your two years! In early recovery there were times I stayed sober to spite those who said I would not make it. Hang in there JJ it all passes.
Keep on keepin on
I for one knew you would make it....Just for the record. Congratulations on two years of beautiful sobriety. (((((())))))
You will look back on your current difficulties in acouple of years and laugh.
We love you too JJ !
Happy 2 Year Sobriety Birthday :)
What a wonderful day! Happy Birthday, JJ! The more sobriety I get the more I want it! HAPPY TWO YEARS!
hAAppy 730 consecutive days to U,
hAAppy 730 consecutive days to U,
hAAppy 730 consecutive days dearest JJ,
hAAppy 730 consecutive days to U!!!
2 years milestone -- Incredible miracle u r JJ. Sending you lots of sunshine.
JJ,
YOU ROCK!!!! Congratulations, I love you. I will never forget the day we first met, you are such a special person...
Love you
April
JJ!!!!!!! HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY FROM ALL OF US TO YOU HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY FROM ALL YOUR SOBER CREW! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
YOU ARE AN AMAZING WOMAN!
thank you for all your love and support!
and I know you know this too shall pass, and you are doing it, one foot in front of the other, suitin up and showin up... and being responsible and trying to do it Gods way
YOU ARE LAURA BLEEPIN CROFT!
Happy Birthday buddy!
JJ, you are an inspiration. Happy birthday!
Two blessed years of freedom from the chains of active addiction. It took your Lara Croft like strength to bust free and stay free and I have no fear that you will walk right on through whatever it is you are experiencing.
Remember the power of the magic magnifying mind, focus on the problem and the problem will be magnified. Focus on the solution and that will be magnified. The choice is really up to you and I know you can do it.
Happy Birthday beautiful! Love all of you! Meg
HMMMMMMMMM blueberry muffins yum yum yum. 2 years clean and sober, there are no words to describe how good I feel for you. Laura Croft better move over quick.
Happy Birthday JJ you rock... Hey we are pretty damn close in birthdays. I guess I passed out first.
Came to gove you a shout from Sober Chick's blog.
Happy Birthday to you!
May God continue to give you the strength, guidance and courage you need for sobriety.
Ok, I'm about two whole minutes from missing this.....
Happy Anniversary JJ!!!! Love this post.
Heh check out my new gif. You are next to animate.
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you!
:-D
xxx
Happy Anniversary!!!!!!!!!
Sorry about the late wishes....
It's a long time and it's not a long time... but you deserve every day of it. God Bless you & Keep you. You're a wonderful & delightful person
I think it was one of my original posts that I wrote something to the effect of they say bad things come in 3's but doesnt it really depend on when you start counting!?!
Life continues to throw curve balls and you seem to be getting a lot of tosses right now... With that being said, it should make you even prouder that YOU are still in control of what your choices are. Thats huge!
The other thing I heard in your post is that inspite of what others thought you rose above. Again... huge. You value yourself and you are staying positive (or continuing to try to... )
I admire that you are true to yourself and that you have 2 years under your belt. Its wonderful that you see that this is a lifelong battle... that, like with anything we value, it will always take work.
Happy Monday! I hope its a good day for you!
Through thick or thin, rain or shine you are here every day with words of struggling and words of achievement. Your commitment is a shining example, so on your second anniversary I salute you young lady. Rock on...
Post a Comment
<< Home